Me, on a good day

For everyone who loves Jesus, but yet has had an experience of terrible loss, sickness or the death of a loved one…this blog is for you.  I am evangelical, a pastor and a teacher at a Bible institute. I am also Bipolar I, with rapid-cycling (and a bit of paranoia thrown in, as if I didn’t have enough). I have been hospitalized in mental hospitals on ten different occasions.  But, I love Jesus more than anything. And I’ve been told by many, who insist that He loves me as well.

I have experience the darkest and most difficult depressions.  There are some days I could not get out of bed, shower or even eat.  For this and the Bipolar I take lithium, Zoloft, Seroquel, and Provigil.  These meds hold me in place.

This blog is for the mentally ill believer, the terminally ill, and all who are confused and dismayed by their own brokenness.  You don’t need a diagnosis.  The feeble, lame, sick, blind and mentally ill have not always been welcome in the Church.  But, I’m convinced that it has been the churches’ loss.  The church need not look to new ‘fund raising ideas’, it just needs to reach out to the broken.  I think God will bless every church who will do this.

The Church needs us, whether it realizes it or not.  It is as broken people that we model our fallenness as the paradigm to intimacy with Jesus.  It never has been about our giftedness, but intimacy.  We are a reminder, a visible testimony of  how God’s grace gives His power to the weak and despised.