I know myself pretty well. I fully understand how dark I can be. I’m nasty and mean, selfish and destructive. I am the “King of Filth and Deceit.” (That is my official title, look it up.) King Midas turned everything he touched into gold. Everything I touch turns black and putrid.
But I have heard, that there is a place where I can be made white and bright. Fully cleansed of an immensity of evil. He can heal me, and I do not have to continue to produce such wickedness. I do not have to hurt His dear ones anymore. When I accept Him, He releases me.
So I come to Him, and cling. I will not let go, I grab Jesus and hang on. I won’t slide back into this painful darkness. I will latch on to Him with everything I have. I’m a “snapping turtle” of a steadfast grace, once I bite down, I refuse to go back to the dark ugliness of an evil and empty past life.
I’m learning that I must learn to forgive myself. He has already forgiven me. A weaver works diligently on a rug that he is making. He uses even the dark thread as he does his work. In the same way, those deep transgressions must become a part of the Spirit’s work from my life. He takes it up, without flinching, and weaves it into His work. What He does is miraculous.
I see sadness, and He sees glory. I see nothing but evil, and He chooses to turn it into a special grace. And so, I cling to Him and wait for the Lord to meet me. He is not overwhelmed by my stains, and He promises a complete deliverance from my great darkness. So I cling, as a drowning man latches on to a life preserver.
Oh, dear one. Someone has been looking for you. Jesus has been searching, trying to save you. You can go your own way, but I predict nothing but a difficult sorrow, if that is your real choice. But, there is a way of escape, and it is full of joy and peace. And it is real.
I know, (first-hand,) that it difficult, but that is just the first stage. There is a raucous joy that is waiting for you. You will find such a purpose and completeness that will make your head spin. He will launch on you into a love and a kindness that you will hardly be able to contain.
- Righteousness: His or Yours? (brokenbelievers.com)
- God’s Great Love For Us (pastorht.wordpress.com)
- To His cloak I cling (booguloo.wordpress.com)
- The Old Rugged Cross (mammabloggar.wordpress.com)
- Childlike Faith (essentialspurgeon.wordpress.com)
- Loving Jesus Above All Things (brakeman1.wordpress.com)