Humility and the Broken Believer

“Humility is perfect quietness of heart. It is for me to have no trouble; never to be fretted or vexed or irritated or sore or disappointed. It is to expect nothing, to wonder at nothing that is done to me, to feel nothing done against me. It is to be at rest when nobody praises me and when I am blamed or despised.

It is to have a blessed home in the Lord where I can go in and shut the door and kneel to my Father in secret and be at peace as in a deep sea of calmness when all around is trouble. It is the fruit of the Lord Jesus Christ’s redemptive work on Calvary’s cross, manifested in those of His own who are definitely subject to the Holy Spirit.” –Andrew Murray

As believers who have been broken on the wheel of life, we will sometimes struggle with “the what-ifs”. What if I could have stayed stable, we ask ourselves. We are so busy thinking about what-could-of-been and we miss the opportunities we now have as a broken person. Murray apparently reached a place where he could find peace with whatever happened.

We who struggle with depression, or with mania or delusions have much to deal with. We are not really accepted by our pastors and church and it seems we fight a very private battle. It seems that we will never reach our potential.

But no matter what happens, through whatever misunderstanding I must endure, peace is found in humbling myself.

“How great victory was that which Jonathon must have gained over himself, when he rejoiced to see David raised above him! He discerned the mind of God in David, and had so learned to delight in God, that he did not see in David one who was to outshine him, but another faithful man raised up for God and Israel.” –(Robert C. Chapman). Someone once told me, “always try to do someone else’s will rather than your own.” I think that is excellent advice.