“When the Japanese mend broken objects, they aggrandize the damage by filling the cracks with gold. They believe that when something’s suffered damage and has a history it becomes more beautiful.”
~Barbara Bloom
Just a short word of encouragement to all my suffering brothers and sisters. I believe God loves you (not a cliche) and has a tremendous plan for you. Scripture tells us that we will reign with Him (and the last time I looked, there is no disqualification for being mentally ill). Having suffered through your whole life will be just an enhancement, a bonus when you finally are held by Jesus, in His arms.
Those of us who struggle with depression, mania, and paranoia know a lot about cracks and brokenness. Mixed states, anxiety, and social withdrawal all have taken their toll. Addictions and suicide attempts have made up our past life (and even sometimes try to intrude on the present.)
I have a dear friend with advancing Alzheimers who understands little of what is happening to her, but she still worships God with the rest of the congregation. She had been before the dementia a spiritual marvel. Without a doubt one of the astonishing women I had ever met. Now however, when she raises her hands, I believe the angels step back in a deep awe. I just realized this, the angels understand worship, they really do. BUT, they do not understand worship out of brokenness.
Let us worship God with our cracks and brokenness. In John 12, a woman breaks open a jar of nard on Jesus feet, while the other disciples hang back and complain. But always remember this dear one–it is being broken that releases the perfume.
