Category Archives: delusions

The Story of Kyrie Eleison and My Mental Breakdown

Ten years ago, I somehow connected with this song. I was terribly manic and I had found my way somehow from Alaska to Cambridge, England. It was there I wandered the streets  talking to myself, lost and disoriented. I had … Continue reading

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Superglue and the Blood of Jesus

“For I will never leave you, or forsake you.”  Hebrews 13:5 It’s funny, but it seems that our civilization claim to fame revolves around this grand idea of inventing good adhesives. Chemists and manufacturers have astutely given us wonderful glues and … Continue reading

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About Barnacles and Masks

‘THIS PEOPLE HONORS ME WITH THEIR LIPS ,  BUT THEIR HEART IS FAR AWAY FROM  ME .” Matthew 15:8, NASB “Of all bad men, religious bad men are the worst.”  C.S. Lewis This singular verse is set in a series of … Continue reading

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Mental Hospital Blues

I must tell the truth.  I have been in a hospital for my mental illness. Actually seven times. And each time was bitter, but I learned something.  They would take me of shoelaces, and belts, and fingernail clippers.  Basically, I was stripped of … Continue reading

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That Delusional Shore

I need to be honest and forthcoming.  Life has been, let’s just say…interesting the last several weeks.  I have been struggling a great deal with delusions and paranoia, two big issues that are part of my mental illness. Maybe I ‘over-think’ … Continue reading

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