Category Archives: personal testimony
Depression and Diabetes
For some reason lately I’ve been thinking about the similarities between diabetes and depression. I know that depression can be one of the complications of diabetes, but that is something I learned only when I did a little research about diabetes and isn’t what I want to share about these two diseases. Caveat: I am [...]
Dealing with the Ultimate Fear?
When I was a boy I was terrified of death. The very thought of being six feet deep in a small box, with maggots, rottenness and decay terrorized me. I also had an incredible fear that someone would make a mistake and that I would wake up entombed in a buried coffin. Just thinking about it now [...]
Rip Tide Lessons
In the late 1990s, Lynn and I were based about 200 miles south of Tijuana, Mexico. We would be working in Baja in the sleepy little village of San Telmo. It was hard work, but we would take day trips to a beach on the Pacific Ocean. One beach in particular, was a favorite place for surfers. [...]
The Meat Grinder
I feel like I am going through a meat grinder. Pushed against my will (and desire) I’m finding myself in a place I’d rather not be. My therapist confirmed today that I’m in a “mixed state” where bipolar mania and depression come together. I compare it to two massive ocean currents smashing into each other. (please Google, “mixed state“). [...]
Chasing Euphoria
“That’s the difference between me and the rest of the world! Happiness isn’t good enough for me! I demand euphoria!” Calvin & Hobbes, comic strip _____ One of the blessings of turning 50 is to come to a place where I can sit and think about my life, and how it unfolded the way that it [...]
A Mighty Fortress, Understood
Martin Luther, Reformer Martin’s Depression The hymn A Mighty Fortress Is Our God gloriously celebrates God’s power. It was penned by the great 16th-century reformer Martin Luther, who believed God’s power could help believers overcome great difficulties — even depression. Given his pastoral heart, he sought to bring spiritual counsel to struggling souls. His compassion for those souls [...]
Just Fling It
A man scatters seed on the ground. Night and day, whether he sleeps or gets up, the seed sprouts and grows, though he does not know how. All by itself the soil produces grain—first the stalk, then the head, then the full kernel in the head.” –Mark 4:26-28, NIV The insurmountable potential of a [...]
BrokenBelievers: My Story, Redux
Hello! My name is Bryan Lowe and I guide this blog, BrokenBelievers.com. I’m also a Christian pastor and Bible teacher who struggles with a ripping case of Bipolar Disorder I, and a walloping dose of Hepatitis C (which I contracted using IV drugs.) Alaska Bible Institute: www.alaskabible.org Refuge Chapel of Homer: www.refugechapel.wordpress.com I have a burden for a blog that will [...]
English Pigeons, and Other Scintillating Mysteries
In April 2002, I sitting in this cavernous waiting room at King’s Cross in London, England. I was waiting for a bus to Cambridge, UK. I sat all alone, and stared at the tiled floor at my feet. The doctors had warned me not to travel alone, but I had disregarded their restrictions. I was [...]