Category Archives: trials

The Story of Kyrie Eleison and My Mental Breakdown

Ten years ago, I somehow connected with this song. I was terribly manic and I had found my way somehow from Alaska to Cambridge, England. It was there I wandered the streets  talking to myself, lost and disoriented. I had … Continue reading

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Wait for the Finals

I have gained much from reading Spurgeon over the years. I read this this morning, and I could hear the Holy Spirit speaking into my soul. I need more of this” peaceful perseverance” working in me. From Charles Spurgeon’s “Faith’s Checkbook” Wait … Continue reading

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Long Furrows

The Plowers “Many a time they have afflicted me from my youth; Yet they have not prevailed against me. The plowers plowed on my back; They made their furrows long.” Psalm 129:2-3 The farmers here have begun making long furrows. Lord, … Continue reading

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“Darkness is My Only Companion” Excerpt

Lord Jesus Christ, you are for me medicine when I am sick; you are my strength when I need help; you are life itself when I fear death; you are the way when I long for heaven; you are light when all is dark; you … Continue reading

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My Health at This Moment, Sunday, March 10

Follow-up. It’s Sunday morning here in Alaska. We survived already this morning– DST, an earthquake, dog poop on the carpet, and snow, and it’s not even noon yet. (Can’t wait to see what the afternoon will bring.) I had my … Continue reading

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