Tag Archives: personal testimony
Fear & Loathing in Hawaii
A year before I received Christ as my Savior, I was hospitalized in a U.S. Army psychiatric ward. My uniform was replaced with the distinctive attire of a mental patient. Ironically, I had been attached to the same hospital as a medic on the labor & delivery floor. And to make things only slightly more surreal was that [...]
Mannequin Logic
For as in Adam all die, so in Christ all will be made alive. 1 Corinthians 15:22 But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved. Ephesians 2:4-5 When you were [...]
A Stranger to Your Holiness
Below are the lyrics to a CCM song that I listened to over and over, circa 1982-83. The album is Steve Camp‘s, “Shake Me to Wake Me“, and there are several songs of reasonable significance on it. Unfortunately, I no longer have a copy, if you should find one, I’d be happy to take it [...]
An Extremely Potent Love
“Cross Jesus one too many times, fail too often, sin too much, and God will decide to take his love back. It is so bizarre, because I know Christ loves me, but I’m not sure he likes me, and I continually worry that God’s love will simply wear out. Periodically, I have to be slapped [...]
Psalm 13, “Your Deliverance is Ready”
Psalm 13 For the choir director: A psalm of David. 1 O Lord, how long will you forget me? Forever? How long will you look the other way? 2 How long must I struggle with anguish in my soul, with sorrow in my heart every day? How long will my enemy have the upper hand? [...]
Feeding the Beast
I am by nature a rascal who cultivates pride, lust, anger and selfishness. I am inherently dishonest and can be very spiteful. There is NO WAY the beast within me can serve God. When I am acting my best I’m still a phony and a fraud! Scripture reveals that if I am to be a real disciple I must “deny myself”. There is a [...]
BrokenBelievers: My Story, Redux
Hello! My name is Bryan Lowe and I guide this blog, BrokenBelievers.com. I’m also a Christian pastor and Bible teacher who struggles with a ripping case of Bipolar Disorder I, and a walloping dose of Hepatitis C (which I contracted using IV drugs.) Alaska Bible Institute: www.alaskabible.org Refuge Chapel of Homer: www.refugechapel.wordpress.com I have a burden for a blog that will [...]
The Hopelessness of Mental Illness
I’ve seemed to have settled down into a blackness that defies all explanation. I’m dodging being hospitalized, and they can’t put me where I don’t want to go. Hopelessness swirls me around and I feel like a bug going down a drain. Thoughts of suicide are becoming more concrete and despair is becoming a frequent visitor. [...]