I have had a strange life.
There were times in one of the mental hospitals, where I was very much disconnected from the real world. I went through weeks of “not understanding,” I wasn’t able to mesh with the routine around me. I sincerely thought I did, and I wanted to very much. But the ‘gears’ wouldn’t come into alignment. Mental illness made me a stranger to what was real.
Struggling with mental illness will very often take you into places you have never, ever dreamed of. As a matter of plain fact, you’ll hardly will grasp what is real. And that is when you sink into insanity. (At this juncture, only God can restore you.)
My heart goes out to those who are lost in their own minds.
But certainly also to those ‘loved ones’ who are completely muddled. They so want to explain what is happening. Those of us, ‘on-the-slide’ down, must realize that we are affecting all those lives of those who are nearest to us. This is not a guilt-trip, but a simple acknowledgement of what ‘falls-out’ on the recipients of our twisted confusion.
“My mind is a neighborhood I try not to go into alone.”
— Anne Lamott
The point of this is we must accept that there are places in our minds which are “no man’s zones” where logically none can go safely. Those of us start to transgress that ‘zone’ and we become casualties.
Destruction rules in us, and we are undone. All you want to do is to escape from what is hurting you. Maybe that is why abusing alcohol and drugs is so prevalent among hurting people.
I do want to encourage you who are waiting for a dear one, a loved one to emerge from their confusion. They are lost, and have disappeared into the fog. It’s hard to see them anymore. Your heart breaks because of their condition. But you must trust in the Grace of the Father. You really have no other options.
“We are workers together with God, so we beg you: Do not let the grace that you received from God be for nothing.”
2 Corinthians 14:1
- Mentally ill are allowed to run amuck in Cali (ddiamondz.wordpress.com)
- 4 mental patients killed in Ndola (times.co.zm)
- How Anne Lamott found solace as her best friend was dying (huffingtonpost.com)
- Am I Mad? (sharingdard.wordpress.com)
- A Day in the Life of a Mental Hospital Patient (brokenbelievers.com)