“Ah yes, the Shroud of Turin! We will have to dry clean it before we return it.”
Inspector Clouseau, (Upon discovering stolen artifacts) in The Pink Panther 2
I honestly think that our bumbling attempts to follow Jesus are entertaining angels who watch our efforts and shake their heads in astonishment. ” Did you see what Bryan just did?” I guess I’m the “Inspector Clouseau of the spiritual realm.” Clumsy and very much oblivious, I bungle my way down the path of discipleship, without a clue. It seems when something right happens, I still end up butchering it.
We have experienced so much, been given so much light, and yet we consistently choose to trade it for a lie. For the most part, I don’t sin automatically, I choose it, consciencely and deliberately. People don’t sin because they feel they have to. We sin because we like the pleasure it brings. We sin because it feels nice. We sin because it brings a thrill to our bodies, fleeting satisfaction to our souls and excitement to the boredom of our everyday lives. We sin because we believe the lie that the pleasure it brings, though passing (Heb. 11:25), is more satisfying than the pleasure obedience brings.
The issues I have are medical and psychological. I have chronic Hepatitis C. I survived a brain tumor and I need to walk with a cane. I do have a bad case of Bipolar disorder. I have some struggles with paranoid delusions and social anxiety. These are forgivable and God gives me buckets of grace. I know first-hand his agape love for me.
But he cannot bless disobedience and rebellion. When we announce to the world that “Jesus is Lord” we can expect God will hold our feet to the fire over this. The Holy Spirit will not negotiate when we suddenly decide we are hungry for sin. Apprehended by grace, we must fully surrender all claim we have to sample sin’s delights.
In the middle of my psychiatric issues, I must remember joy. I can not imagine being without it. I’ve been clinically depressed to the point of suicide many times. But God gives me joy in my darkness. “The joy of the Lord is your strength.” (Nehemiah)
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Thanking Him for the joy too! God bless you, Pastor B!
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