“The apostles gathered around Jesus and reported to him all they had done and taught.”
Mark 6:30, NIV
You couldn’t find a more intensely amazed group of disciples on the green hills of Israel. Coming from the four points of a compass they gathered at the predetermined time around Jesus. They excitedly told Him of wonders and miracles beyond, but He was their center. He was holding His sheep close to His heart, and they responded to Him.
I believe that the Lord desires that we first activate, and then implement verse 30. That we come to Him and share the details of our day. The things we did–in His name, and in His heart. We should tell Him all that we did, how we endured temptations (or didn’t). Our thinking and our acts of mercy, the Kingdom’s blazing success or it’s perceived failure.
Jesus wants to know from our own lips the things we have accomplished in His name. This is not a formality. Rather, it is our personal testimony.
It is only right that we share with him any failures and setbacks. His love is not contingent on our performance. We may have failed him in someway, but everything we do is a treasured moment with him.
Jesus will not condemn or judge you–that is a given. But as we tell Him about these things, He can transform them so good will come from them. Difficulties encountered also are to be communicated. He is fully absorbed with our sharing, He devotes Himself to you during these times. He even understands when we come back carrying nothing.
But let us tell Him all. This inventory or diary should be the bulk of our evening prayer. It needs you to be honest, and completely forthright. Sharing the days failures and successes, Jesus is wonderfully attentive; as we share and release things to Him (and in His name), we become more like Him. And that can’t be all bad.
“No matter how high the powers of reason, no matter how deep the intellect, no one can discover God’s secret messages without paying the cost of true discipleship.”