The treasure of our being in this world is also produced by an injured life. If we had not been wounded, if we had not been injured, then we will not produce the pearl.”
Sometimes we find it almost impossible to see things from God’s perspective. We hurt, and lash out, sometimes irrationally. We subconsciously compare our situation to others we see and admire. This something we do almost automatically. When it feels like we are being singled out, we get angry with God.
God’s business is pearl-planting. He looks for a soft heart that can be cultivated. His intention is never to harm, but to enrich us. When we lost our daughter, Elizabeth, the pain was incredible. We looked and saw healthy families all around us. I began to accuse God and compare us with them. We hurt, they did not, and it seemed so unfair. But as time moved on, I slowly felt the growth inside. Over time it has become a pearl.
A pearl of great price, because it proceeded from my daughter’s tragic death.
Our lives have been injured; perhaps mental illness has severely affected you. Maybe physical issue or pain is part of your life. There is a myriad of ways we can hurt. At times we are angry. But remember, God has a plan. He also understands completely.
Paul Billheimer, the Christian author, wrote a book years ago entitled, “Don’t Waste Your Sorrows“. (The title alone is the worth the price of the book.) We are each have the potential of throwing away the work of God in suffering. We can literally waste the pain, the suffering, and the grief by turning our back and denouncing God to the world. It happens all the time.
- Don’t Waste Your Sorrows (brokenbelievers.com)