When There’s No Exit: Psalm 88

  Lord, God of my salvation,
    I cry out day and night before you.
Let my prayer come before you;
    incline your ear to my cry!
For my soul is full of troubles,
    and my life draws near to Sheol.
I am counted among those who go down to the pit;
    I am a man who has no strength,
like one set loose among the dead,
    like the slain that lie in the grave,
like those whom you remember no more,
    for they are cut off from your hand.
You have put me in the depths of the pit,
    in the regions dark and deep.

Psalm 88:1-6, ESV

I definitely needed this Psalm today. Yesterday I went to the doctor and was blindsided by news that really isn’t good, at all.  Of course, I also have this ongoing struggle with depression.  Today I feel like I’m running a marathon with ‘leg weights’ on. 

This particular Psalm is radically different than the others. 

This Psalm has no kind words, and no praise to God for deliverance.  It is a singularly sad song.  Imagine if you will, a huge stone fortress in the mountains.  Every room has a door, and every room a window.  All except one.  No light enters this room.  There is no entrance or exit, no way to get free.  Psalm 88 describes living that torturous experience.

I like my Psalms to be strengthening or encouraging. 

But then comes this one!  Life unravels and frays.  Everything gets confusing. Life comes apart.  The thought of being one who is irretrievably lost and damned, it saturates my thinking.  The despair is beyond belief, I have no words to describe its special variety of darkness. 

Anyone who has walked into this hell will understand.

Am I ‘less’ a Christian because of this vicious despair?  Some would say so.  The writer in verse 1-2, calls out to God.  (I guess this what you are supposed to do).  There is a sense of consistency in his cry.  In verses 3-5, we see him evaluating his position.  Again, there is a underground current of despair. 

There is simply no help, no deliverance for him.

It’s a bitter and painful place to be.  There are no explanations why life has gotten so nasty and bitter and out-of-control.  But one thing that Psalm 88 does quite well, it strips you of any dignity that you have left. 

(Does this make any sense at all?)

There is so much embedded in the book of Psalms.  Comfort, faith, victory and hope are what we find. But in Ps. 88, we find a black pearl, the only one of its kind.  Somehow, we dare not leave it behind, just because we don’t understand it. 

I’m convinced that it has tremendous power to the disciple who is in endless pain.  Just vocalizing this Psalm does something to us.  These real words help.  This Psalm is ours. 

God has provided it for us.

 

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Author: Pastor Bryan Lowe

A repentant rascal with definite issues, but who is seeking to be authentic in his faith to Jesus Christ. An avid reader and a hopeful writer. Husband and father. A pastor and Bible teacher. A brain tumor survivor. Diagnosed with clinical depression, and now disabled. Enjoys life, such as it is, in Alask.a (Actually I have it pretty good.)

8 thoughts on “When There’s No Exit: Psalm 88”

  1. Reblogged this on Waltkaye: A blog about depression, feelings etc and commented:
    Viel habe ich im Moment nicht zu sagen. Zu sehr hat mich die Arbeit und die wiedergekommene Depression im Griff. Zu viele Blockaden, kann mich kaum bewegen (arbeitstechnisch ist das heftig). Schlechte Träume, heute Nacht hatte ich geträumt, mir das Genick anzubrechen und dann zur Bewegungslosigkeit verdammt zu sein.
    Bin ich am Ende, oder an einem Scheitel- und Wendepunkt?
    Auch wenn ich mit Gott oft haderre… Vielleicht ist er doch irgendwo? Hat ein Erbarmen mit jemandem, der sich selbst und anderen im Weg ist? Der nicht “performed”?

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    1. German translated to English via Google Translate:

      “I do not have much to say at the moment. I was too much work and restored on depression under control. Too many blockages can barely move (technically, the hard work). Bad dreams, today I had dreamed to break my neck and then be condemned to immobility night.
      I’m at the end, or at an apex and turning point?
      Even though I often haderre with God … Maybe he’s somewhere? Has pity on someone who is themselves and others in the way? Not the “Performed”?”

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  2. You said it! In that Psalm, I find some words that prove God knows me. It didn’t get left out of the Book because it was too heavy or too sad. God’s beloved people can experience the lowest level of mood and/or thought and still be in Him. That’s merciful….and loving.

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