Safe in the Mouth of Danger

In my dream, I had a vision.

An angel of the Lord led me down to the depths of the sea.

“What do you see?” the angel asked.

I said, “I see a boy, a child, in the mouth of a shark!”

“Yes,” the angel said.

“But, he is terrified!” I said.

“He will be grateful,” the angel said. “Watch.”

As I gazed upon the frightened child, a great white suddenly attacked the shark. The child began to climb out of the mouth of the shark, but he had set his leg upon its jaws and the shark bit down and took off his leg. The child, however, was able to swim away safely because the great white was devouring the shark.

“How is this possible?” I asked the angel.

“Do you not know?” the angel responded. “Have you not heard? With God, all things are possible.”

“But,” I said. “Why was the child not spared this danger in the first place?”

“You will see,” the angel said. “Come.”

A moment later, we were on dry ground.

“Was that real?” I asked. “I am disillusioned.”

“What do you see?” the angel asked.

“My leg is gone!” I proclaimed. “I was the child!”

“Yes,” the angel said.

“But,” I said. “How can I live without my leg? I lost my leg!”

“But, you did not lose you,” the angel said. “And that is precisely what would have happened had you not lost your leg. If the shark had not swallowed you whole, the great white would have attacked you from the side. You would have been devoured and destroyed. Instead, you have been spared.”

“Why?” I asked. “Why have I been spared? Why am I still here? Why must I suffer so much?”

“You suffer,” the angel said. “Indeed, you exist, to give hope. Now, go. And teach God’s children how to walk with a limp. Strengthen your brothers. Encourage your sisters. Show them how to survive A Dark & Stormy Night.”

“Yes, my lord,” I said, bowing my head in respect as the angel vanished from my sight.

When I woke up, I recorded my vision, that my brothers and my sisters may yet understand why they, too, must walk with a limp.

“Do you not know? Have you not heard?
“With God, all things are possible.”

A Broken Christmas

My friend, JD, passed away earlier this month.

And I feel like I am reading the same script over and over again.  I’ve lost count of how many loved ones I’ve lost.  I try to believe the promises of our Father.  I do.  I try.  Though grief has clouded my vision before — each time, actually — things are different for me this time.

It’s not because people don’t know what to say.  It’s not because I’ve endured disappointment from The Church, either.  And it’s not because I cannot make sense of yet another loss that, to me, makes no sense at all.

Divine wisdom defies human logic.  That much I’m sure.  And I suppose I have gotten used to that part.

But, I do feel like a boxer getting pummelled in a corner — and the crowd is cheering.

In my constant quest to find comfort, I have encountered endless tales written by those who claim to have been broken.  And, if I am honest, I have seen some such people — in fact, many — dress up their testimonies with a grandiose glaze.  They cite, in scant detail, only the most necessary ingredients of their story, discussing their difficulties like a waiter runs through the specials of the day; it’s a matter of procedure, of training.  And instead of a passionate conviction of faith, I am fed a false ideology, an idolatry that foolishly demands the will of God bend to our own comfort in a fallen world.

But such grandiose testimonies alienate those of who are broken.  We are isolated, and there are times I feel as though I have a deadly, contagious disease; it’s as if people cannot bear the thought of enduring what cannot be endured.  I have not overcome the odds at all. 

Our suffering is constant, and our struggles cannot be resolved with a delightful dressing.  We do not hide from our pain, nor our anguish.  When we are willing to accept our suffering — and I certainly am a most unwilling student — we do so because we know Christ Himself has suffered; He took no shortcuts to His Crown, and neither can we.

Yule Time Humor

 This is a very eclectic gathering of Christmas humor.  These cartoons really shouldn’t offend.  But if they do I ask for your forgiveness and forebearance.  More then anything else, have a jolly Christmas full of light and faith. 

 

 

 

 

 

With much jocularity and with a Christmas love,

The Virtual Yule Log

I love Christmas.  I love what Jesus has done in bring peace and joy to each one.  Unquestionably, this time of the year can be difficult.  Those of us who struggle as mentally ill believers find that things are more tinsel than terrific.

This is a perfect 20 minute break in your work day at the office or to escape from the kids!

A virtual yuletide video fireplace right on your computer screen, any time you want! With highest quality video, stereo audio and high definition TV picture resolution.

First make sure you select the “HQ” icon at the bottom of the widescreen video for HDTV quality, and the button that opens the video to FULL SCREEN so it fills your entire computer monitor. Dim the lights if you can, and sit back to relax and listen. We have selected six of the softest songs from Sam’s album “On This Night”, mixed together to blend smoothly, and with a bit of invigoration at the end with Sam’s self penned song “All I Need This Christmas”, to get you back on track to your daily routine. The order played in the video is:

1) THE FIRST NOEL
2) LITTLE DRUMMER BOY
3) THE CHRISTMAS SONG
4) HAVE YOURSELF A MERRY LITTLE CHRISTMAS
5) ANGELS WE HAVE HEARD ON HIGH
6) ALL I NEED THIS CHRISTMAS

Please enjoy this.  Both Linda K and myself want you to understand Jesus and what He means to those “who walk with a limp.”