My Health at this Moment, Tues. March 5

Pastor Bryan Lowe
Bryan Lowe

I really don’t know what I should say now. Yesterday, March 3, I woke up and made the frightening discovery that the entire left side of my face was paralyzed. Eye-mouth-lips-tongue. But being a true coffee drinker, I found I could only drink my morning joe with a straw, otherwise it just dribbled down my chin. And I couldn’t close my left eye.

I drove my son to his classes, and then decided on a whim that it might be wise to have my doc look at it. I was immediately escorted up to the hospital’s ER. The concern was is that I had a stroke; or in the midst of one. But the real diagnosis though is Bell’s Palsy.

Since I physically couldn’t close my left eye I experienced the horrible experience of not being able to blink. I must of made a ghastly sight with an eye that didn’t close, staring out like a cyclops. That was the worse of it. Even though the pain was minimal, the eye was affected the worst, and since I couldn’t close it on its own was very irritated. It would only close by physical pulling down the eyelid.

I suppose the worst part of it was going in for an MRI. Because of my past brain tumor that has become the biggest issue here. I could tell the tech was aware of something. And that they discovered something. The radiologist deferred any diagnosis until the past MRI from Anchorage could be consulted.

So now I sit here writing with just one working eye, and a prayer. I don’t want surgery again. And yet, at the same time, I want them to carve this thing out. I’m 52 years old, married with two great kids. In ministry that I love doing. But I am fully in God’s hands.

The Bell’s Palsy if that is all its is, has a healing rate of 3-6 months. And that’s fine– if it is just that. But if it is another brain tumor, than my symptoms will only spread. I will know on  Friday, later this week. I will let you know.

If wish to help me, please take my name before the Father. Having this awareness, I can follow Him much more gracefully. We can be excited (and hopeful) for a healing, but I’ve learned it takes just as much faith to follow Him through things like this.  Oh, BTW, if you run into me on the wooly streets of Homer Alaska, I’ll let you buy me a Vanilla latte. But I will need a straw, lol.


“I will trust Him. Whatever, wherever I am, I can never be thrown away. If I am in sickness, my sickness may serve Him; in perplexity, my perplexity may serve Him; if I am in sorrow, my sorrow may serve Him. My sickness, or perplexity, or sorrow may be necessary causes of some great end, which is quite beyond us. He does nothing in vain.”

 John Henry Newman


Kyrie eleison.

ybic, Bryan

Bell’s Palsy Basics–

Published by Pastor Bryan Lowe

A repentant rascal with definite issues, but who is seeking to be authentic in his faith to Jesus Christ. An avid reader and a hopeful writer. Husband and father. A pastor and Bible teacher. A brain tumor survivor. Diagnosed with clinical depression, and now disabled. Enjoys life, such as it is, in Alask.a (Actually I have it pretty good.)

16 thoughts on “My Health at this Moment, Tues. March 5

  1. Bryan, You are most certainly in my prayers. This week I am studying Philippians in Bible Study Fellowship. I see in this post a great example of what Paul says in Philippians 4:12-13 – “I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength.” You are a blessing to many by sharing your struggles and your trust in Jesus through them. Peace, Linda


  2. Father God, I pray for Pastor Bryan. I ask for the blood of Jesus Christ to cover Pastor Bryan from the top of his head to the soles of his feet. I ask for healing Father God. I ask for angels to minister to Pastor Bryan. In Jesus Christ’s name, I bind worry, fear and anxiety. In Jesus Christ’s name i bind shame, guilt and condemnation. In Jesus Christ’s name. I bind any spirit that is not of the Holy Spirit, I ask Father God for health, healing and restoration. In Jesus Christ’s name, I put a hedge of thorns and a ring of fire, 7 miles wide around Pastor Bryan. 7 miles above Pastor Bryan and 7 miles deep below the ground where Pastor Bryan is. I pray this in Jesus Christ’s name. Amen.


    My Prayer Candle will be lit for you in the morning.
    Trusting the Lord will Heal you.


  4. Father, I bring your servant son, Bryan, to you. Please heal this Bell’s Palsy. And bring the MRI diagnosis to simple scar tissue from previous surgery. Shalom to my brother, Pastor Bryan. Amen.


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