“Oh, why give light to those in misery,
and life to those who are bitter?
21 They long for death, and it won’t come.
They search for death more eagerly than for hidden treasure.22 They’re filled with joy when they finally die, and rejoice when they find the grave.
23 Why is life given to those with no future,
those God has surrounded with difficulties?”
Job 3:20-23, NLT
Job begins to curse his very existence. Life has become far too brutal. He has lost everything. At this point Job is completely undone.
There is an endless grief that even his tears can’t help.
In Job’s first speech he asks some basic questions:
- Why is light given to those who are full of pain?
- Why does life unfold to the one who rather not live anymore?
There is a powerful wish or desire in this three verses. He wants to die, and end the charade. He wishes for non-existence and laments that he can not die fast enough. His terrible pain has taken his life.
People with disabilities and chronic pain can understand Job’s welcome craving for any sort of release. Once they were “whole” people. Death was something to be avoided at all costs. But now it is seen as an escape.
Job simply wants out.
Hurting people will often turn to drinking and drugging as a way of coping. We’ll try anything to numb our thinking. It’s what gets us through the day. We are bitter, and we are lost.
For Job (the patron saint of pain) finds that nothing will fix him. His friends have come, but they seem to only accuse and confuse job. Honestly he is better when they just sat with him in silence. If you read the book of Job you will understand.
“God wants us to choose to love him freely, even when that choice involves pain, because we are committed to him, not to our own good feelings and rewards. He wants us to cleave to him, as Job did, even when we have every reason to deny him hotly.”
–Philip Yancey
“Come quickly, Lord, and answer me, for my depression deepens. Don’t turn away from me, or I will die. Let me hear of your unfailing love each morning, for I am trusting you. Show me where to walk, for I give myself to you.”
Psalm 143:7-8

ybic, Bryan


Bryan, you are blessing so many with your understanding! I recommend your site to lots of people! :) Thank you for being transparent and open about your life and God’s grace. Hugs to you!
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