Category Archives: self hatred

Quarantined, for His Purposes

  Quarantines are a real possibility, even in this day. A quarantine is imposed when disease is contagious enough that it would harm a society: Measles, Smallpox, and the recent Ebola Virus  are just a few physical diseases where strict … Continue reading

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Ministry & the Mentally Ill

“Religious people love to hide behind religion. They love the rules of religion more than they love Jesus. With practice, the Condemners let rules become more important than the spiritual life. “ — Michael Yaconelli Mentally ill people are rarely seen in … Continue reading

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Bridges to Burn

As a rambunctious kid I’d be told by my mom, “This is going on your permanent record!” At the time I didn’t know what that was, but it sounded really scary. I remember debating myself of whether or not such … Continue reading

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Dismayed by My Own Fallenness

“As the Scriptures say, “No one is righteous—     not even one. 11 No one is truly wise;     no one is seeking God. 12 All have turned away;     all have become useless. No one does good,     not a single one.” Romans 3:10-12 Scripture … Continue reading

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Almost Holy, [Almost]

“And I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. I want to do what is right, but I can’t. 19 I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is … Continue reading

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Ministering to Yourself, [Self-Encouragement]

The Psalms are a classical example of self encouragement. The writer sometimes fell in to some moments of depression and he would write encouraging words to uplift his spirit. Today these have become encouragement verses or scriptures for us to … Continue reading

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An Inconvenient Madness, [A Broken Believer]

Very simply, bipolar disorder is characterized by mood swings that are defined by major shifts between incredible mania and clinical depression. It’s usually intense and quite disabling. Depression: There are days when I wake up and I don’t like what … Continue reading

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