Category Archives: desperation

Our Salvation Is Quite Sure

My favorite of all the apostles is John, “the disciple whom Jesus loved.” I love his Gospel, and the three epistles that he wrote, and of course,  Revelation. There are a couple of things I love about John’s writings: He … Continue reading

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I Still Grieve (But I Now I’m at Peace)

‘Who gathered this flower?’ The gardener answered, ‘The Master.’ And his fellow servant held his peace.” It was November 13th, in the year of our Lord 1999, was unlike any day I have ever experienced. A beating with a baseball … Continue reading

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“Without Your Wound, Where Would Your Power Be?”

The subject of “the pool at Bethesda” alludes to the following excerpt from the Thorton Wilder play “The Angel that Troubled the Waters”. The play is based on the biblical verses of John 5:1-4, but it changes the end of … Continue reading

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Killing My Sin, Before It Kills Me

We are for the most part anyway, eager to please God. We are Jesus’ people with the occasional brush with sin. But hey, who doesn’t? But that attitude must be questioned. “My little children, these things I write to you, … Continue reading

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Battle Scars

It is a bad habit to try to teach without personal knowledge. We can preach, but we do not possess. This is one of the occupational hazards of those of us in our profession. It seems to carry a horrible curse … Continue reading

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Jesus Actively Helps Me

“So then, since we have a great High Priest who has entered heaven, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to what we believe. 15 This High Priest of ours understands our weaknesses, for he faced all of the same … Continue reading

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English Pigeons

“I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my eye upon you.” Psalm 32:8 In April 2002, I was sitting in this cavernous waiting room at King’s Cross in London, England.  I was … Continue reading

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