I’m Always Disappointing Myself

We read of the “Romans 7” man.

  • For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh.
  • For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. 
  • For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. 

Romans 7:18-19, ESV

When we struggle like this we can safely assume that we’re trying to be holy and accepted by God apart from the grace of God. Our efforts to please Him fall woefully short. This frustration is when we try to keep the Law and neglect to walk in the Spirit.

To be disappointed in your behavior is not grace. To continue living like this becomes deception and hypocrisy. Most of all it creates a vicious wall between your walk and God’s love. A barrier between you and others.

The tension of Romans 7 is real. Every believer will encounters it.

The Scriptures teach us the depravity of man. All we do, even our best efforts and noblest actions are selfish and corrupt. As we understand this we end up realizing that there is a vast gulf between our aspirations and our actions.

“We are all infected and impure with sin.
    When we display our righteous deeds,
    they are nothing but filthy rags.”

Isaiah 64:6

We have a problem when our heart doesn’t match our actions. I’ve worked through the obvious. And yet it gets a little hairy when our ‘little’ sins are visible to others. We feel like hypocrites and we know that our testimony is officially ‘toast.’

“Many have passed the rocks of gross sins – who have suffered shipwreck upon the sands of self-righteousness.”

    William Secker

Romans 7 describes what is wrong with us, it seems we are attempting to please God by our own efforts.

In Romans 7 we read of a man who is constantly disappointed in himself. It can be wrenching to read– partly because it is so real. It describes us too well. At times the Word is like looking into a mirror.

This is what a dear friend said to me recently. I was flabbergasted. I didn’t know how to answer. It was a bit embarrassing, but I couldn’t respond. Later, the Spirit ministered to me while praying about it.

The Lord spoke in my heart, “You’re much worse than he realizes. Don’t you dare defend yourself!”

I now realize I should have said this to my friend. “You’re absolutely right, I am a bit of a flake. But you only see the veneer, deep down  I’m much worse than you will ever know. I can’t defend my actions, and I desperately need a Savior. Would you pray for me to work this out? I need Jesus”

The daily struggle with sin and personal failure is sometimes more visible than we would like. Even as a believer I can and do sin. That should surprise no one, and yet, it seems I’m the most amazed when sin inevitably breaks out. At times I feel like I specialize in inconsistency.

I wonder when we boldly ‘strut’ into His presence if the angels don’t ‘roll their eyes?’

Whenever we come before God, we should never show up with our list of great things we have recently done for Him. It won’t be accepted. They are at best, filthy rags. They’re not fit for a King’s court. But yet we keep coming, parading our dirty, grimy rags.

We keep forgetting that only Christ’s righteousness is accepted in God’s eyes.

“The greatest enemy to human souls is the self-righteous spirit which makes men look to themselves for salvation.”

Charles Spurgeon


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Was Jesus Mentally Disturbed?

“When his family heard about this, they went to take charge of him, for they said, “He is out of his mind.”

Mark 3:21, NIV

Even our Lord’s own family did not believe Him.  I can see them gathering out of concern, not only for concern for Jesus, but for the family name– perhaps they felt a need even to protect themselves?  They talked at length, and decided on an intervention, to take custodial care– as families must do at these difficult times.

Jesus had been saying things, disturbing things. 

He had resolutely confronted the religious system, and then rebuked King Herod and the civil government.  He was living on an edge, and the sense that His family had was that He had become mentally unhinged.  He had been cavorting with decidedly irreligious and wicked people.  He lived in constant bedlam, with people mobbing Him for healing.

His teaching seemed extremely radical, almost absurd. His “parables” contained bizarre ideas. And the massive crowds actually would chase Him, trying to anticipate His next move. He was essentially a celebrity –  a “rock star.” I suppose we have no idea, of His appeal to the masses.

We have some choices that must be made. What do we make of Jesus? Is Jesus Christ:

  • Legend
  • Lunatic
  • Liar
  • Lord and GOD?

In his famous book Mere Christianity, C.S. Lewis makes this statement,

“A man who was merely a man and said the sort of things Jesus said would not be a great moral teacher. He would either be a lunatic–on the level with a man who says he is a poached egg–or he would be the devil of hell.”

“You must take your choice. Either this was, and is, the Son of God, or else a madman or something worse. You can shut him up for a fool or you can fall at his feet and call him Lord and God. But let us not come with any patronizing nonsense about his being a great human teacher. He has not left that open to us.”

The accusation has often been the case for His followers. Some of Paul’s friends thought he was crazy when he went blazing over land and sea to carry the gospel to every city. But his answer was, “No, I am not crazy; the love of Christ controls me” (2 Cor. 5:14). 

This was a good kind of crazy. 

He was being used by Jesus to continue the ministry that Jesus had started– the establishment of the Kingdom of God. 

I believe it is a far deeper insanity, that seals up the truth and the light and keeps it away from unbelievers.  It is crazy to know total forgiveness and unconditional love, and then to avoid opportunities to share that same love. Now, that is crazy!

Our fear of being ostracized and mocked is an intense experience. Peer pressure is not just something our teens go through. We are always in danger of being molded into the world’s image.

Who are we? 

Our Lord and Master was vilified, He was falsely accused of insanity.  But perhaps, it is the other way around.  Perhaps it is this world, and its bondage and sicknesses that are ill.  

You must decide.

Please see these four very good links: “Was Jesus Crazy?,” and “The Resurrection of Jesus Christ” and “Evidence or Blind Faith?” or “Who Would Die for a Lie?“

Bible Study Links

Something different.

Top 10 Useful Study Links 

2 Timothy 2:15 

Consider putting these links if you like on your bookmark bar. Some sites need to be explored. Some of these links have apps that can be very useful for use on your phone. When I first compiled this link list I had 25. I culled out these 10 which are the best. If you would like the full list please let me know. Slowe299@yahoo.com. 

You may distribute this list freely. 

  1. biblegateway.com/, Many Bible translations, comparisons 
  1. thetreasuryofscriptureknowledge.com/, Cross references. A classic. KJV. 
  1. enduringword.com/, David Guzik’s commentary on the whole Bible 
  1. desiringgod.org/articles,. John Piper’s site comes with a search window 
  1. blueletterbible.org/, Greek, Hebrew dictionary, quite useful 
  1. gotquestions.org/, Excellent site, search questions, comprehensive 
  1. christian-quotes.ochristian.com/, Over 1000 quotes by Christian leaders 
  1. reasonabletheology.org/ , apologetics, comments, theology in plain language 
  1. Operationworld.org, intercession for the world, new country every day, get app. 
  1. executableoutlines.com/links.html, many links, a good site, expansive 

Extras, I couldn’t resist. 😁

https://alaskabibleteacher.com/, my site, discipleship and ministry posts 2x week.

https://kingdavid101.com/, my other site, slowly walking through the life of David.

I really, truly hope that this list helps you.

Study Links for the Berean

[The Bereans] “received the word with all eagerness, examining the Scriptures daily to see if these things were so.”

Acts 17:11

I put together a list of Bible study Links that should bless anyone who really wants to go deeper into the Word of God. Some will bless, others maybe not. I really hope that these will really bless you.

25 Links for the Christian

  1. https://www.biblegateway.com/, Many Bible translations, comparisons 
  1. https://thetreasuryofscriptureknowledge.com/, Cross references. A classic. 
  1. https://www.blueletterbible.org/, Greek, Hebrew dictionary, quite useful 
  1. https://thebible.org/gt/index, Seven translations at one time 
  1. https://www.biblestudytools.com/compare-translations/, Another site w/ translations 
  1. https://bibleresources.org/parallel-bible-form/, lots of different stuff, useful 
  1. https://enduringword.com/, David Guzik’s commentary on the whole Bible 
  1. https://www.spurgeon.org/, C.H. Spurgeon’s resources 
  1. https://awtozer.com/, A,W. Tozer’s resources 
  1. https://www.desiringgod.org/articles,. John Piper’s site 
  1. https://www.raystedman.org/complete-library, Ray Stedman’s resources 
  1. https://onlinechristianlibrary.com/author/dwight-l-moody/ Some stuff by D.L. Moody 
  1. https://alaskabibleteacher.com/, Bryan Lowe’s teaching site 
  1. https://www.gotquestions.org/, Excellent site, search questions 
  1. https://executableoutlines.com/, 1800 outlines, topical and verse-by-verse 
  1. http://christian-quotes.ochristian.com/, Over 1000 quotes by Christian leaders 
  1. https://onlinechristianlibrary.com/authors/, good site. 
  1. https://betterbibleteachers.com/, Teaching kids! 
  1. https://www.precept.org/, Precept aids, needs sign-in though. 
  1. https://www.biblestudytools.com/, Bible articles mostly. 
  1. https://www.walkthru.org/resources/free-resources/free-study-guides/, excellent. 
  1. https://biblestudylessons.com/classbooks/index.php, workbooks, commentaries. 
  1. https://www.todayintheword.org/, Moody Bible Institute, study aids, good site 
  1. https://reasonabletheology.org. Books, theology, apologetics 
  1. https://truewaykids.com/, Reaching children, some SS resources