Instability and the Believer

I feel good, too good— and it concerns me. I guess I shouldn’t be surprised, I’ve been down this road before.  I guess this is my big issue with Bipolar Disorder (BP);  its unpredictability, the way you  fluctuate.  You get up in the morning and you immediately have to start analyzing your mood.  “Am I moreContinue reading “Instability and the Believer”

Chasing Down Euphoria

“That’s the difference between me and the rest of the world! Happiness isn’t good enough for me! I demand euphoria!”  Calvin & Hobbes, comic strip One of the blessings of turning 55 is I come to a place where I can sit and think about my life. I’m intrigued by how it unfolded the wayContinue reading “Chasing Down Euphoria”

The Oblivious Find His Mercy

I have had a strange life.  There were times in one of the mental hospitals, where I was very much disconnected from the real world.  I went through weeks of “not understanding,” I wasn’t able to mesh with the routine around me.  I sincerely thought I did, and I wanted to very much.  But theContinue reading “The Oblivious Find His Mercy”

Paranoia and Delusions, Oh My!

Didn’t really sleep last night but an interesting day.  Hope it continues to develop in that direction.  I really need a good day to come along right now. Been thinking about paranoia.  It comes loaded up with delusions.  They are separate words, but when they make that toxic combination it gets strange.  Are people outContinue reading “Paranoia and Delusions, Oh My!”