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Psalm 138:23-24, NCV
“Examine me | Test me | See me | Lead me.” When we think about an examination, we are never happy or relaxed about it. In our thinking an examination could mean the exposure of weakness. And that is exactly what we want to avoid. Funny though, the psalmist puts himself under the microscope. He invites full disclosure, he anticipates God’s x-ray machine. He wants it.
But his life isn’t perfect or complete. There are fears, and anxieties laying deep inside his heart. Many times this would divide us, and split us from Him. Anxiety will often become a strong wall, that would grow into an issue of some significance. The psalmist moves into God’s presence. So much in him had to be extracted. Understanding that the Father is incredibly aware of us is only the first step.
Examine me | Test me | See me | Lead me. Four words that we must get to know. The Christian life “pivots” on these four words. The four brought together, get dynamically linked into our hearts. These four concepts will become quite critical as we come closer to Him. There is a synergy, when the elements of discipleship are mixed together. For example, if we extract “the examine me” part of this equation, we will not be able to conclude the situations we face very effectively.
I once made a couple loaves of bread where I mistakenly substituted sugar instead of flour. I was frustrated because the lump of dough, was not responding. So what did I do? I added more “flour” which was really powered sugar, from the unmarked canister. Later, what I buried in the backyard was a big lump of something that would never, ever work. Not even if I wished it very hard.
That takes God examining my life, full disclosure of everything. We need to be intimate, by being astonishingly open to Him. The things we share will be confidential. And it will also be essential. “May it be the real me who encounters the real You.”
James 2:17
Recipes are good. I used to sit and read “The Joy of Cooking,” reading it like it was a literary novel. I was quite fond about the simple way it divided everything up. You had sections on Meats, and Desserts, and even Drinks. And every so often it would insert a cooking tip. Sometimes, I would start to smell that recipe I was thinking about.
I have never told anybody about this odd preference of reading material. The really funny part is, I’ve read how to poach an egg, but I have never done it. As a matter of fact, I don’t cook. Hardly ever. You see I have saturated myself in reading cookbooks, but that doesn’t make me a cook. Only cooking makes me a cook.
We keep getting it messed up. We seem to put the wrong stress on things. We attribute value to things that we shouldn’t. I happen to think that “faith” is a verb. I also think that reading the Bible should activate us, and not to educate us.
Often, I treat it like a cookbook. I read and read, voraciously mind you. But I don’t cook! I have never put a single recipe to the test. I have read about terrific “Eggs Benedict” on page 222, or the luscious sounding “Grandmas Tasty Cherry Pie” on page 651. But it’s only filed away somewhere in my mind; I have never moved beyond this point.
I guess what I’m trying to say is this: we must realize that Scripture is first for our hearts, and not so much for our heads. Cookbooks are good, but when it all shakes out, are you actually and really, cooking? Or are you just reading?

Below are the lyrics to a CCM song that I listened to over and over, circa 1982-83. The album is Steve Camp‘s, “Shake Me to Wake Me“, and there are several songs of reasonable significance on it. Unfortunately, I no longer have a copy, if you should find one, I’d be happy to take it off your hands. You’d make this “Jesus Freak” a happy man. Even if you can’t do YouTube, I encourage you to read these lyrics as if it were a poem.
Lyrics to “Stranger To Your Holiness,” by Steve Camp
Looks like the boy’s in trouble again
Living much too close to the edge of sin
Now he finds himself where he should not have been
Oh God, why is Your peace so hard to find
And the answer to the questions that haunt my mind
Oh Lord, Your ways are not like mineAnd it pounds like thunder within in my breast
All the anger of my humanness
And though I call You “Lord” I must confess
I’m a stranger to Your holiness, a stranger to Your holinessCan we really be what we were meant to be
Jesus’ people, living by the Spirit and living free
My heart longs to serve, but wanders so aimlessly
Oh Lord You deserve every part of meHear my cry of desperation as I see the wickedness of my ways
You alone are my salvation, and Lord I’ve learned this one thing to be true
Is that the closer I get to You, I see I’m a stranger (to Your holiness)
Don’t wanna be no stranger, and it burns like a fire…
As I follow Jesus as His simple disciple, I’m very aware of the issues that tangle me. It is like a net that drops and I get quite caught in it. But we really are asked to shake these things off. In 35 years of following Him, I find my personal sin is more clear to me then ever as I follow Him. “Ye shall be holy, for I am holy.” Lord hold me close as you continue to deal with me.
“Such a large crowd of witnesses is all around us! So we must get rid of everything that slows us down, especially the sin that just won’t let go. And we must be determined to run the race that is ahead of us. 2We must keep our eyes on Jesus, who leads us and makes our faith complete.”
Hebrews 12:1-2, CEV
Mr. Camp reaches into places that the average Christian musician misses, and communicates relevance to all those who seek His face. This particular song has a lyrical integrity and sensitivity that makes it stellar. As I ponder the words I find myself with someone who understands me and my issues. I hope this blesses.